♥ K's Romance

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Came out at last.
Thanks for all my friends concern.
Special thanks to Sumbut.C, and heartfelt apologies for not being there with you when you go for your surgery.

During the days in there, I'll let a few tears escape.
And go on a real crying jag at night.
But I couldn't sleep well, even after I was done crying.

Four lifeless walls was all I can see in there.
Claustrophobia creep up on me.
And every morning, terror struck when I open my eyes to the handkerchief-size lockup.
You could never see the sky there, it's like a cage.

Everyday, I let all the past memories pass through my mind.
I realise something, I realise I can't live without my mum.
She'll always be the one whose suffering when I got into trouble.
Sorry, mummy.
I love you.

Well, I'm gonna learn to do a good job of blocking painful and unnessesary things out of my mind.
That place was literally my personal hell on earth.

But I found something good inside too.
And thats friendship.
To beloved 苹果 and Kelly:
When I'm totally all alone, you two step in and accompany me through my days in there.
Though its only a short period of time, but we totally understand each other's feeling.
I'm waiting for you two to contact me, waiting for the day we three could meet out together.
I'll be missing both of you.
Especially 苹果 , your birthday's coming. How I wish you could be outside celebrating.
Bless you two, love from me.

有时候,
我会怀念起以前的我.